Lizzie Wants

I want to be a better person. I want to be patient, more tolerant, stress-free, stronger, more disciplined (as if I'm not already) and at the same time be more... fun loving, a risk taker and more adventurous. These are the things lizzie wants.

building

I recently changed the name of my blog to Lizzie's Window. My blog will now be how I see the world - not as introspective and self focused as before.

I recently got a few comments and feedback about the things I usually do. What's surprising is that after hearing it, I was disturbed, but I was able to accept it and not take it personally. This is good news because I would usually ponder on it until someone convinces me otherwise. I think this change is because I decided I will take a stand and be assertive. Of course, I am not overly assertive - which for me is a wonderful thing. I'm taking my stand. I know who I am, why I do things so I can assess what are valid comments and what are just criticisms. I'm taking my stand now. I won't compromise my values. I know why I have them and I stand by my decisions.

There were some organizational changes at work recently. I was happy for my office mate. I was rooting for her all this time and I'm actually happy things went well for her. I'm just surprised a bit. Also, my school mate ended up in the same team as I am in. This is quite surprising, too because I never get what I want in those "wish" categories. F1, meet my buddy Ros Ros.

I noticed the successful people around me are aiming high. I think this is important because it gives them direction. I would say I'd play it safe and aim for something attainable. This is part of my personality and I'd rather take a sharp curve with eyes closed. I knew I had to change this and take a riskier outlook in taking challenges, but I realized I don't have to. I read the book Good to Great recently and I found out that I don't have to change myself entirely to be successful. If my formula for success involves carefully calculated risks, then this is where my comfort zone is. I think I will move forward as the years past.

Speaking of years, I am turning 22 next month. I'm older now. Hahaha. It's funny how people change so quickly. 5 years ago, I would never have imagined I'll be where I am now. I'm not exactly that optimistic, but I didn't really know what I can do. I'm glad I went to the right college for me. It really helped me become more independent and confident. Now if I can just project that into the next five years! How wonderful would that be?

I was recently asked if I would stay in the same company for the next two years. My answer is a definite yes. I plan to stay until I get what I want. I want to be promoted so if it takes 5 years or 7, I will get my promotion. This definitely shows signs of my pessimistic self, but I underestimate to overdeliver. Not the best slogan, but works for me. In terms of plans, I want to go into business, but first! I need to get some capital I can play with. I don't want to gamble my savings on a long shot. Segurista ako e.

People who are happy aren't selfish. =) I finally finished 75% of Failing Forward by John Maxwell and I like his idea that generous people are happy. I was bored the other day so I searched myself in google. I know, it's quite eccentric and self centered. However, I was happy with what I found. A friend of mine said I was an interesting person. Hehe. =) Good good. Yesterday someone gave me some negative feedback. I was happy to know about it, but I'm not happy with their reaction. I'm not really a fan of illogical making fun. That's not funny at all.

Such a long entry. =)

right

so this is how it feels noh?
if i hear someone tell me
that's how the gray area feels like
i'm going to flip
coz i don't need someone telling me how to label what i feel
i just need to make sense of what is happening
so shoot me
if i'm at fault then i'm wrong
if i'm the one who made the mistake then i'm wrong
but if i'm at fault and i'm wrong
then why don't you hate me?
if i make good judgement calls
if i try to do what's right
then why don't things turn out right?
if i try to make things ok
if i try to make things better
then why aren't they better?
if i
if i
then why doesn't this make sense?
if i try to, if i don't
then why does it hurt so bad.

So what's the point in all of this?
When you will never change
The days have passed,
The weather's changed

Should I be sorry? Could I be sorry?

I did it all, all for you
Hoping you would see

Should I be sorry? Could I be sorry?

take the wheel

I just realized there are some people who will never care for you as much as you'd want them to, so it's better to keep the ones who do.

I still want to ask the question - why is it so hard for people to stand in another person's shoes? Do you have to say out loud everything that you think so that others would know?

Maybe it's just because I'm tired. It's only January and I've had an allergy, flu, fever and a sore throat. If this says anything about the new year, then I definitely need to make adjustments. I won't last long enough if I continue like this.

Which brings me back to my question - why is it so hard for other people to stand in my shoes? If I'm going to die because of being overworked, then I will die overworking for myself. It's time to take the wheel and drive.

Resource Management

It may seem like this side of the hill is easier, effortless and relaxed, but until you have rolled down this side of the hill, please reserve your comments.

I find it odd for people to make requests without putting other's welfare in mind. This is why I believe people should speak up. They should also ensure that their message is clearly understood by the other person. If you don't speak up, no one else can speak up for you. Only you can share your thoughts in the most effective way.

So this is me speaking up.

I dislike you taking portions of my cake. My cake is mine. I do the regular base cake, put the 2nd tier just like everyone else and top it with icing. It's difficult to do the 2nd tier, but I do it anyway. It's difficult to do icing while doing the 2nd tier and the base, but I do it anyway. I don't ask for leeway other than when I'm utterly useless. Now is my time to do the icing. Why should I do your base cake? The reason I can do my base cake, 2nd tier and my icing is because I exert extra effort to make it happen. It's not something which magically happens overnight. It takes effort so don't giggle at me saying I'm good coz I'm not. I try harder.

I hate wolves underneath sheep's skin. They say the most pleasant of things, but underneath the pleasantry is a putrid, disgusting character. It's tantamount to saying, here's a knife, go hurt yourself please. Don't you just hate that tinge of pa tweetums?

It's my right to take what's mine. Why should I be grateful that you didn't take it away? Of course, I do sense that fake pleasantry. I don't approve of that. I like sincerity more.

I don't like having to explain myself. Why do I have to explain when it was you who asks for a favor? Ask nicely and sincerely and do show that you did some planning prior because I don't deal well with people who aren't organized. I think it's a must-learn for them.

If I were not tired. I'll give way easily, but I have my own deadlines to meet. Do I have cogs and wheels to you? No. I am just human. I need rest and I need people to be sympathetic.

Time

I'm never a fan of laziness nor giving up. I always put work first and continue relentlessly until I achieve nothing but the best results. I feel inadequate when I give less than what I can. However. I need a goal. I need rest and I need time.

Time management is such an easy thing to discuss. It's all about prioritizing, putting effort to what's most urgent, most important. Easier said than done. What people neglect to realize is that for you to manage time, you have to have time.

I believe that people CAN ALWAYS make time. This is true, but it's always at the expense of something else. The goal now is to weigh what is more important? What would give me most returns in the short term and in the long term?

There's always a choice. Please don't say you don't have time. You can make time at the expense of _______________ . You can turn down tasks at the expense of your credibility at work. You can make time for work at the expense of your personal time. The question is always: what are you willing to give up? What are you willing to do?

Next time, instead of saying, "I don't have time." Say: I choose to have personal time instead of staying longer hours at work. Say: I choose to stay in the office instead of going out with my friends.

There's always time. It's just up to you how to use it. Forget the things you miss and focus on the things you choose to do. Instead of regreting decisions, make a plan of action.

There's always a way. There's always a solution. It just so happens you might not agree with it 100%.

Pera o Bayong

Tao lang ako. I get tired. I get frustrated. However, I still do my best and my hardest to please everyone.

However, there comes a point where I have to take my stand. My stand isn't fickle or a result of emotional musings. It's a result of sensible and well-thought out process. It's not an act of defiance or arrogance. It's an act which reflects my values and the things I believe will be fair to all. You may try to invoke confrontation. You may reject my thoughts. You may try to appeal to emotional immaturity, but no thank you. I'm taking my stand. I'm finding ways to make things better for everyone because that's who I am. I strive to add value in everything I do to the best of my capabilities. You may not agree with me now, you may never realize the positive side of what I say. I will be disappointed, but I will find a way to communicate better and to understand your and mine stand points. I will find ways to improve communication, but I'll never invoke confrontation nor will I attempt to appeal to emotional backstabbing and twisting of words. I will remain straightforward, honest and truthful to reason and sensibility.

This is who I am. I am nothing less.

Barbie Almalbis fan

How do you know you like a certain type of music?
It's when you listen to a song, tell yourself you like it then find out they all came from the same artist.

you know it's the GREATEST DAY when your spirits light up with JUST A SMILE kahit na walang DAHILAN.

someday

Someday, things will be better and I'll just look back and laugh.

fools and thieves

Fool me once, shame on you. Fool me twice, shame on me.

Is there a stupid person? If you do stupid things, then you're almost a stupid person. I disagree completely. Stupid people are those who allow themselves to be limited by what they did today. Smart people are those who realize that they are who they continue to be. They realize that life is continuous web of interrelated events driven by people.

So the thief is a thief only when he/she continuously does so.
The fool is a fool when he/she continuously neglects his/her things.

and when fool lets thief get away with it, that's life --> the life where fool is a fool and thief is a thief.